Deep Thoughts by...Just Kaye

Blindsided...

2012-02-20T11:40:00.002-06:00

This weekend I had my angel girl, also it was going to be the time I would meet my ex husbands new girlfriend. See, I messaged his girlfriend on Facebook because I had been wanting to meet her for a while. My parents were out of town so I figured it wouldn't be as awkward. She messaged back saying that she was looking forward to it. Sunday comes and I notice she has a ring on her finger. So I ask, "Soooo what's going on with you guys, any news?" She said, well we're engaged....I don't remember what exactly was said after that but I remember feeling angry. I looked at Robby and said, I had no idea and thanks for telling me. They thought I had messaged her because I saw the pictures he was tagged in on FB.... um, nope. First of all, why would I want to find out on Facebook anyway?! Second, he should have discussed this with me. This has a huge impact on our daughters life and the first time we meet you're already engaged??

I didn't break down and cry until I saw a picture of Mikayla wearing a shirt that said "Will You Marry My Daddy"... it's not that I have feelings for him because I don't. I just feel like I deserved fair warning, a discussion, something! I am really happy for him, he deserves to be happy. It's just going to take some getting used to I guess.

Single Awareness Day.

2012-02-15T20:31:00.001-06:00

I hope everyone had a great day yesterday! Mine was, well, just another day. I went to dinner with my folks...nothing says "i'm single" more than that. It was nice though. I got a 25.00 gift card from work, and Zio's for lunch. Box of chocolates, a card, an Adele CD and flowers from my folks. :) I guess I shouldn't focus on V Day as a day where you have to be with somebody, just a day of showing others that you love them. I'm so very fortunate to have been shown that by my folks.

In two days it will have been 3 years since I moved here. A lot has happened and i've hit some major lows but i'm climbing my way back to the top. I'm making some serious headway in life, and I'm loving it. I have a lot to be thankful for. Ok i'm getting super mushy. I hope everyone has a great rest of the week. :)

Welp...

2012-02-08T22:38:00.003-06:00

Remember this idea?

Well.... I DID IT! My first ever tattoo and it was EASY! I went with my new friend Katy who was going to be getting her arm started. She was holding my hand and the minute he started I said "Oh, that's not bad at all!" and she let go and he did his thing. He said "I gotta say, for your first tattoo, I'm a little impressed." I feel really good about my decision :) It was only 60 bucks too! So I know you want to see it, sooooo here it is!

Love <3

Moving, pretty much stinks.

2012-01-29T07:49:00.002-06:00

So I haven't even lived in Tulsa 3 years yet and this is my fourth move. I'm not even counting the move here. I got my key yesterday and started loading in my clothes. It only took me a couple of hours. Today is when the big stuff gets moved. Bed, Dresser, TV, etc. Then i'll be all done. I took some pics yesterday while I was there...

Living room, obviously :)

To the left of the Living Room, near the fireplace there's this extra living room?

My room at the moment.

Kitchen, that doesn't have a dishwasher *sigh* lol

There's also a sunroom that connects to the back door but my roommates dog was out there, and I didn't want to get him all riled up. Anyway I should be finished today. I'm nervous and excited. I have a feeling i'll be fine though :)

Haters gonna hate...

2012-01-23T22:20:00.000-06:00

I know who you are "Anonymous" and you didn't hurt me one bit with your comment on my last post. I don't care about what you think either. I've been getting calls for you because apparently you've been going back to church so they call looking for you. You are such a hypocrite. I'm sorry you have such a sad and pathetic life, so much so you want to ruin mine. Well sorry, it's not going to happen. I'm in the best place I have ever been in my life and you can't do anything to change that. The ones who say hurtful things are the ones who are jealous and insecure. So keep hating. I do have a pretty awesome life. I can see why you're jealous.

Sneak peek of weight loss.

2012-01-19T03:47:00.002-06:00

I was told to take pictures every couple of weeks so I would be able to see differences. Well I'm nowhere NEAR done but it's a start...

Dec 20th, 2011

January 18, 2012

Don't worry Mom and Dad, it's not my underwear. I'm excited to see what another months difference will look like! I will not give up!

Ho hum...

2012-01-17T22:03:00.004-06:00

Today marked my 8th week going to the gym... I keep telling myself I will not give up. I can't quit, especially since Mom and Dad got me 7 months for Christmas. So I can't quit, at least not until July. I'm noticing small differences. I thought i'd have more weight loss than I have but guess that's just not how it goes for me. I weigh more than I did when I first started. I'm gaining muscle though and losing body fat. Just gotta keep going :)

And then there are boys... none are in my life, and I like it. It gets old but eh, it's not a priority. My band family has found another place to do live band karaoke! Woohoo to extra money again! Plus it will be on Wednesday nights from 6-10! Which will make working the next day a WHOLE lot easier. Hmm, like it was meant to be :P

I guess that's all I have for now. I hope everyone has a great rest of the week!

Until next time...

Leaving the nest...for good...hopefully.

2012-01-11T18:49:00.000-06:00

Well everyone, it looks as though i'm moving into a house early next month! I am beyond excited. My new roommate seems really nice. She works a LOT and is hardly ever home. I think we'll be perfect together. I don't think i'll have wifi for a bit but we'll see. I'll take pics when I get moved in. Hopefully this will be my last move for a long while. I. Hate. Moving. Good news is, i'll only need to move my clothes and bedroom furniture :)

So wish me luck, it's going to be interesting.

Tomorrow is the day...

2012-01-09T21:16:00.003-06:00

I'm going to look at the house i'll be moving into tomorrow! Also, meeting the future roommate. I'm nervous, anxious, and excited all at the same time! I'm sure it'll go fine. I'm more ready to move and finally be fully independent. I will have my own car, own place, and a good job. I'm moving in the right direction! My friend Liz, wrote this in her blog today...

"What I realize now is that there is never a perfect time, never a "right" time to do anything. You just have to keep moving forward. It can be incredibly scary at times, because the trail you blaze for yourself is often dimly lit and full of things that go bump in the night. Sometimes, you get to where you think you wanted to go and fuck shit damn, it's not where you wanted to be. That's okay. Keep moving forward."

I love those moments when things you need to hear, appear. People and/or things definitely come into your life for a reason. I've found a lot of support systems through blogging. People that can relate to you in different ways. It's a wonderful thing. :)

Speaking of Liz and her awesomeness. She's in a book! Go out and buy it. She's a great person to know and have in your life.

Goal number one.

2012-01-05T06:13:00.000-06:00

Well it looks like I've found a roommate! She's a friend of a friend and has a house I'll be moving into. I am beyond excited. I won't have to move in with a creepy person from Craigslist! So I guess you can say goal number one is done!

I'm loving 2012! :)

Happy New Year!

2012-01-01T16:26:00.000-06:00

I hope everyone had a great New Years Eve. Me? I didn't do anything. I stayed home... mostly everyone was going to either be downtown or home, so I figured it was best to stay safe at home and avoid any drama or drunk drivers. When did I become responsible?

My first goal this year is to find a roommate. It's really been hard. A lot harder than I thought it would be. I've e-mailed a lot of people but you'd think they would e-mail back! *sigh* It'll happen when it's supposed to I guess. I just have to keep being patient.

Second goal, which I guess could be done while doing the first, is to keep going to the gym. I really love going. I feel better after I do, and believe me sometimes it's really hard for me to go but I love the feeling of making myself and doing it. Mind over matter they say.

I'm off work tomorrow and i'm pretty sure i'm going to finish reading The Help. Such a good book. Have a great rest of the weekend, and week!

Until next time...

Christmas 2011

2011-12-26T15:14:00.001-06:00

This Christmas we all went to Stillwater to my Sisters house. It was so adorable seeing my nephews open their presents. My niece is only three months old so she was sort of just hanging out, hehe. I actually got presents too, which I wasn't expecting at all. My parents paid for 7 months at the gym i'm going to, yay! This week starts my fifth week at the gym so I'm really excited to be guaranteed 7 more months. My Mom also got me a bracelet. They're Kairos 10 bracelets, made my women in Africa and every purchases get a family a mosquito net. It's really pretty and you can look at them here. My Sister got me a 25 dollar iTunes card. I also got a silver picture frame and a book to start writing recipes down in. It was a great Christmas. I just wish I had my angel with me. She did call me Christmas morning though, so I was thankful to get that.

Tomorrow is my Birthday! I will be 29. I don't know how to feel about this. 29 is the new 19 right? lol I'll just keep telling myself that. I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas, or whatever else it is you celebrate!

Until next time...

Last night rocked...

2011-12-24T13:32:00.001-06:00

I went to a bar to listen to my friends play and to celebrate my Birthday with them. It was so much fun! A lot of karaoke people showed up, and bought me drinks. I also got to sing with Christine again...

I never thought i'd be ok with getting up in front of people and singing. I never liked to have any kind of attention. Now though? I love it. Last night totally made up for my birthday plan bomb. I was a little upset though. I asked my best friend to come hang out with me, but she never answered if she was going to come or not. I saw on Facebook that she was at some other bar. Oh well, guess some friendships have to end some time.I'm going to Stilly tomorrow and am going to be spending Christmas with my family. I hope you all have safe travels wherever you go.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

Fail

2011-12-19T21:41:00.000-06:00

Well my weekend plans failed. Nobody could come to my birthday party so I cancelled it. I'll try it again some other time, probably next month. My karaoke band family is playing at a bar on Brookside this Friday night, and my friend Christine just texted "Make sure you have a good dinner, ;)" lol soooo I think i'm gonna get a few drinks! I love hanging out with them. We still haven't found a place to do live band karaoke, so they're still just doing their own thing.

I'm still going to the gym! This is my fourth week, and i'm working out almost every week day. I feel amazing and I can tell I have a lot more energy. :) I don't know how to feel about turning 29 next week. My last year in the 20's! Oh well, i'll justify it by hearing I look 24 all of the time. :) Anyway I imagine I wont be updating much anymore. Not much is happening and nobody is commenting anymore. I know, i'm not really that interesting. Maybe things will be different. It's not like I blog just for comments, I enjoy writing my thoughts out. I guess life happens sometimes and we all have to take a break.

We'll see how it goes...Until next time!

Good grief...

2011-12-15T20:37:00.000-06:00

Wow, i've been neglecting this blog. So sorry, so sorry. I just haven't had much to say!

We celebrated December birthdays at work today. I was the only one, but everyone made sure to include baby Jesus in the birthday song. haha, cracked me up. I chose to have a turtle cheesecake...YUM! I went to the gym after work tonight, I skipped last night so I had to workout extra hard, since I also had a piece of cake. I'm doing really well, and that really helps me with going.

My Facebook friend Sara and the owners wife, is still working out with me too. My birthday party is this weekend and i'm really excited! Only a few people are coming, which i'm perfectly OK with. The people who are coming are my best girl friends. It'll be fun. Pictures will be shared, don't worry.

I'm ready to move out. I'm just having a really hard time finding a place, or someone to live with. One ad on craigslist said this...

"Big house, rooms to rent. I hang around in my underwear most of the time, so you should be comfortable with that, and maybe you too. No unattractive people please, must send picture (clothed is fine.)"

Um... NO THANKS! I wish people would post more like that, it'd be easier to weed out the crazies. So anyway, wish me luck with that. That's all I have for this week... I hope everyone has a great weekend!!!

This is what it's all about.

2011-12-11T22:41:00.001-06:00

Also, can I just say... hello skinnier face!

Still here...

2011-12-08T21:02:00.001-06:00

Hey everyone! Yes, i'm still alive. Just been sick and still going to the gym, and working while also looking for a place to live. *sigh* Let's start with some good news. I've lost 3 pounds in one week of exercising. Go me! I'm still going and working out with my friend Sara. She motivates me, and I love that about her.

I got Christmas money this week from work, it was an amazing surprise. I even hugged my boss. It's a woman so it wasn't weird. :P. Other than that, nothing else is going on at the moment. I'm feeling great and looking forward to seeing what the future is going to bring me. OH and i heard some dork dork news. Brett Ratner is making a God of War movie!!! This game, is for the PS2, and the third and FOURTH, that's right FOURTH, will be for the PS3... so that's it. I have to get one. I've made up my mind. :)

I hope everyone has a great weekend, I know I will, i'm getting my angel and we're going to have her Christmas this weekend since I wont have her again until after.

Until next time...

I did it!

2011-12-03T09:17:00.001-06:00

Well folks, I did it. I worked out for a full week! I feel great, and it's safe to say that I am addicted. My Mom even said she can already tell i've lost weight! I can't wait to see how I look 3 months from now, and I can't wait to show you all.

Last night I worked out for 40 minutes, rode 20 miles and burned 200 calories. It felt REALLY good. I went out to watch my friends play last night. They started playing All The Small Things and Christine, one of my best friends who is the lead singer, pulled me up there to sing it. I have to admit, I liked it. :) I really hope we can find another place to do Live band karaoke. I miss it!

We're supposed to get snow Monday! I heard possibly 5-7 inches. Insane. Other than that, I have nothing new to report. Everything in life is going great. I'm still looking for a place to move to but that will come when it's supposed to. I hope everyone has a great weekend!

SO ready!

2011-11-29T19:35:00.001-06:00

Well I did it, I joined the gym today! Had my first workout too with my Facebook friend Sara. Her husband owns the gym, and I mentioned wanting a workout buddy and she offered to be it! I am incredibly ready to lose this freaking weight! When i'm done, I will show you all a before and after. It's gonna be like BAM! :P

There's also several people from work that are going to be working out. I will be surrounded by motivated people! Can you tell i'm excited??

Wish me luck!

Thanksgiving with my angel.

2011-11-27T22:38:00.001-06:00

The last five days have been so wonderful. The best Thanksgiving i've had in a long, long time. We didn't have the traditional stay at home Thanksgiving lunch, we went to a restaurant. We played a lot, and Mikayla helped my Dad set up the train set table, and Mom decorate the tree.

Friday, we went to Oklahoma City to go see my Grandma and went to the Omniplex!

I love that picture. I'll treasure it for a long time. I was not looking forward to seeing Grandma in all honestly though, because I just hated seeing her like that. I want to remember her how she always was. Always on the go, helping others all of the time. Not confined to her chair or wheelchair and barely able to stand up straight. Oh well, I guess that's what you have to face when your loved ones get older. It wasn't so bad though. It was a good day for her, and Mikayla was so sweet. She called Grandma her friend, and gave her hugs and sugars.

The Omniplex was awesome. We spent FIVE HOURS there. Everybody enjoyed it and what's really funny is they had this Earthquake thing there, that had been there since I first visited the Omniplex when I was six.I was really surprised it had been there for 20 plus years! It's one of the things I remembered from when I first went. We sat inside the planetarium for a look at the nights sky, and constellations that are up there this time of year. I totally geeked out there.

Saturday it rained pretty much all day, so we stayed inside and played. We watched Christmas movies, and ate a lot of junk. All in all, it was the best Thanksgiving I could have ever asked for.

Freedom...

2011-11-21T07:07:00.001-06:00

Well this weekend was pretty great! I was able to go out and hang out with my best friends. Saturday night I went to this club because my friend had her first radio remote. She did great for it being her first. The club was, well, I've come to realize I'm not a club person. Being surrounded by Jersey Shore type people while they're fist pumping, is not my idea of a good time.

Yesterday the same friend and I had scary movie Sunday. It was the BEST, because it decided to storm. So we watched A Haunting in Connecticut, and got scared. We watched it over at her boyfriends apartment. He is in FL at the moment, but it just made me realize I do not want to live in an apartment again! So my friend mentioned roommates.com and said that I should try it. It's worth a shot, right?

This week I only have to work three days. I'm getting my angel on Wednesday and we are both so excited to have five days together. I don't know if i'll be updating my blog any this week, maybe something blog worthy will happen, who knows. :) If not, Happy Thanksgiving!!!

AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-11-17T21:24:00.001-06:00

I went to dinner with my folks tonight and Dad asked me if I ever thought about buying the Malibu...the car I had been driving. I said, yeah and asked what his terms were... 150 a month!!! He said "You can have it as soon as you get insurance." I went right home and bought it! I HAVE MY CAR!!!!

I cannot TELL you how elated I am! Plus, I didn't have to spend all the money I was saving!

Now on to my next step, moving out!

sigh

2011-11-16T05:00:00.001-06:00

Everyone seems to be moving on. One of my best friends Meghan moved away last weekend, and I didn't even get to say goodbye. My other best friend told me her and her boyfriend were going to be moving in together at the first of the year, which is a HUGE step for her and I couldn't be happier for them. It's so hard to be patient but I know my time will come.

I am just a few weeks from getting my car and that will change things dramatically. I'm excited for next year, to see what it brings, and the challenges i'll face and conquer. This weekend i'm having a girls weekend with my friend since her boyfriend is going out of town. We started coming up with a list last night of things we must do this weekend. They're not even big things, one is "Watch a scary movie" so it's all just pretty random.

I hope the rest of the week goes by quickly!

WONDERtorium

2011-11-13T18:25:00.001-06:00

This weekend we went to Stillwater for my nephews fourth birthday party. We went to the WONDERtorium. It was pretty neat. Not what I thought it was going to be, but it was still pretty fun!

It made me really want to go to the Science Museum in OKC, formerly The Omniplex. I guess I kind of want my girl to be into it too. No harm in that, right? Side note, I was starting to feel the effects of an ingrown toenail. It. Sucks. It hurts so bad! Luckily I was able to get antibiotics prescribed, without the cost of a doctors visit!

Speaking of my angel though, she's growing up so fast. She's reading, and writing and it creeps me out! When did she get so big? I noticed a difference in her this visit. Not a bad difference but she's just way more grown up it seems. If that makes any sense.

She's still asking if I could live with her, and this week she actually asked why I left in the first place. I just told her it was hard to explain but it wasn't that I couldn't live with you, I just couldn't live with daddy. I promised her again that I would move down there, it's just going to take me a little bit. Until that day comes, i'll take all of this...

I can get.

No luck

2011-11-10T17:36:00.001-06:00

I went with my friend Christine last night to look for possible places to host Live Band Karaoke. We went to several places, one being where I wanted to have my birthday party. It wasn't as awesome as I thought it would be. So my birthday plan has changed. I love downtown Tulsa though, oh well. So the other places we went didn't have the room or just didn't want to have a cover band. Guess we'll have to look at some other places.

I got a raise at work last week! THANK YOU GOD! That means three more weeks and i'm getting an even better car than I thought I would! Then, moving! One of my best friends that was going to be my roommate is moving, so i'm going to have to think of someone else to live with. I'm sure i'll have it all sorted out when the time comes.

Tomorrow night i'm getting my angel! Saturday we're going to Stillwater to my nephews 4th birthday party. We're going to a science museum. I have to admit, i'm totally geeking out about it. Ever since I went to the Omniplex in OKC when i was in 4th grade, I have ALWAYS loved science. I can't wait.

Well i'm going to catch up on American Horror Story. Have a great weekend, all!

I am NOT oblivious!

2011-11-07T21:13:00.001-06:00

I just felt my first earthquake! A 4.7. I went to sleep, early lol and woke up to my bed shaking. I was so out of it, I thought it was like 1am, nope it was only 8:30. It was so scary yet exhilarating! Some of my favorite tweets...

Annnnnd another Oklahoma earthquake. At least this one comes during a tornado warning. #lovethisoklahomaweather

Woohoo! Best drinking game ever! Oklahoma quakes = SOCIAL! Everybody drinks! #quakelahoma

I fear between the tornado and multiple quakes, God is trying to wipe OK off the map.

I have just confirmed that the rumble in my house was indeed an earthquake and not a result of my sitting down on the couch. #Relieved

Who said Oklahoma was boring???

Earthquakes!

2011-11-06T10:46:00.002-06:00

Saturday morning at 2am we had a 4.7 magnitude earthquake. I didn't feel it. Then, on Saturday night at 11pm there was another on that registered at a 5.6. The strongest in Oklahoma history. I didn't feel that one either.

I think i'm the only one that is oblivious to the earth moving. It's probably a good thing though, I'd probably freak out.

Anyway, here's the video..

and I follow that video up with this...

haha! Whenever i'm down. I will so watch that. I crack up EVERY time!

Four weeks...

2011-11-05T00:37:00.000-05:00

This moment has been a long time coming. In four weeks I will be purchasing my own car. I cannot TELL you how excited I am about this. Slowly but surely, things are getting better *knocks on wood*. Then I will be saving up money to move out. Where i'm going? I have no idea, but i'll figure it out.

This weekend i'm stuck at home. My parents are in Dallas and I have no car. One good thing about not having a car, is the amount of money you save from not going out. Also, I've started a diet again, and am exercising. I've already lost 3 pounds, and I plan to keep going. I actually called a gym today to see how much it was to use the gym. The gym is under the new ownership of my friend Josh.

The price is CHEAP, plus they have some personal trainers. No telling how much they charge but we shall see. I plan on getting my butt kicked into shape. I need it. Plus i've been feeling really great lately. I'm pretty sure that's one reason I put on so much, was the constant stress. Now that things are getting better, I'm losing it pretty easily!

I feel like if i write out my plans they're more likely to happen. Does that make sense? I'd feel like I was letting people down if I didn't carry it out. Maybe it's just me lol but hey at least I have a short term goal.

Let's see, what else is going on. I finished my 10th week at work today. I still love it. I still remember the first four days. I hated it! I'm so glad I stuck with it. The people are fantastic and the company I work for is great. Anyway, I hope everyone has a great weekend!

Until next time...

NO WAY!!!

2011-11-01T18:38:00.000-05:00

One of my favorite shows is called An Idiot Abroad. It's from Ricky Gervais and Steve Merchant. Season 2 is now airing and this guy, Karl Pilkington goes around and does things from a list called "100 things to do before you die." On the sixth episode, he chooses to travel Route 66. What one place does he come to? CATOOSA, OK. Which is like 20 minutes away from me. I love Karl, I think he's the funniest man ever. He's an idiot, hence the name but he's so funny. So he came to Catoosa and checked out this Blue Whale...I've only driven by it, but apparently it was an anniversary present built by a man for his wife. Kind of like the Taj Mahal, but a whale...lol

The whole point of this post? I really don't know but I cannot believe he was so close! Also, you all should check out this show. It's "brilliant."

Halloween 2011

2011-10-31T17:47:00.004-05:00

My weekend was great. I got home from picking my angel up and saw that my Sis and her family were here. Mikayla loves her cousin. We immediately started playing hide n' seek with my oldest nephew....

I don't think he really understands the concept...

We went to a Halloween party at a friend of my Sisters house. Mikayla went as a butterfly...

:D She makes me happy. My Brother-in-law went as the count...

lol, i laughed hard. So after the party the kids stayed up LATE, playing with a train set my Sister and I always played with when we were younger.

I know what i'm getting her for Christmas. :) The next day we went to church and after lunch I took her back home. In about 5 weeks I will have enough money saved up to buy a car. After that, I'm not sure what i'm going to do. I need to move closer to her so I can have more time with her. I promised her that.I love my job though, and I'm wondering if they'll let me work from home down south, since everything is web based anyway. We shall see. I'm taking it one day at a time for now.

Today I went to work in my Rangers jersey, I went as a "sore loser". I got 20 bucks just for dressing up! Tonight, I plan on watching scary movies and losing sleep. I hope everyone has a great night!

It's over...

2011-10-29T09:45:00.002-05:00

My boys lost. I can't talk about it though, too painful. I watched the game with my best friend and her boyfriend. I like watching sports with people who like the game, but not when they're cheering for the other team or especially when one of them is a complete jerk about it. I was warned that if i talk crap he might get angry. I didn't, the whole night. He however, was awful!! I didn't care though, it's just a game. Is it too soon to say I can't wait until April?? Go Rangers!

I'm about to leave in a bit to go get my angel girl. This weekend is going to be great. I'm going trick or treating tonight with her and my nephews. This is going to be the best "Halloween" I've had in a long time. I will definitely post pics of how cute she is lol.

Have a great weekend!

BOOO!!!!!

2011-10-28T02:36:00.003-05:00

Soooo my boys lost...by ONE POINT, in the ELEVENTH inning!!!! UGH! Oh well, we'll win the series tomorrow night!

Although we lost, my thursday night gig went well. On the way home, one of my best friends, Christine and I went to Taco Bell... this was just something Christine and I did...HAHAHA!!!!

Best. Night. Ever!

Dream proposal...

2011-10-26T07:34:00.001-05:00

I know I may be jumping the gun here...ok, REALLY jumping the gun, since i'm not even wanting a relationship right now, but just for fun, THIS is how I want it to happen.

The movie Friends With Benefits has a scene where Mila Kunis is trying to sell NYC on Justin Timberlake so he'll move there to work. So, she takes him to Times Square, where this does happen often...

And in original chick flick form, things go awry and to win the girl back, he does THIS...

Totally cute, right?? At the end he says "Ok, you can all go home now!" Man, I may have to watch this movie again. Love, it's such an amazing thing. I can't wait to experience it again, but I WILL wait, because I want to make sure my life is perfect first.

Go boys!

2011-10-25T07:13:00.000-05:00

I slept amazingly well last night, my Rangers pulled ahead to make the series 3-2! ONE MORE WIN and we got it! I'm so NERVOUS. Last night was killing me enough. The best part though, had to be pitcher Derek Holland doing Harry Caray...

Bahaha, I was laughing so hard. Then he went to commercial doing Arnold...

We ended up winning 4-2...THANK GOODNESS!

Ready for Game 6!!!

When one door closes, another one opens.

2011-10-23T12:29:00.001-05:00

Well friends, my band family and I received bad news Friday. Live band karaoke had been canned. The reasoning was, we took too long in between songs (not our fault, especially when you have to wait for the person to come up) also we always stopped right when everyone was still wanting to "party"... ummm, last week we couldn't start until 10 and we stopped at 1 o'clock, the bar was only open for another 30 minutes. Plus, you only have us playing from 9-12, SOME people have work the next day. Even though LBK is cancelled they still want the band to play just as the band. That's pretty crappy, don't you think? People are going to show up expecting to sing and we'll have to turn them away. Fine with me though, the place will lose money and realize what a mistake they made.

Ugh, ok, venting somewhat over. Last night the band played at Crow Creek and it was great. A pretty big crowd was there watching the OU game and Rangers game... Boo to BOTH by the way...We won't talk about that though. It was a great show...

Afterwards, Christine said the owner wanted us to do LBK there. For not nearly as much money as the other place. He said he didn't think people would stay around. We also could play at Fox & Hound. I love that place, sports bar with a good atmosphere. So wish us luck on finding something else, I need the money!

Oktoberfest 2011

2011-10-20T07:22:00.002-05:00

Man, i've been doing a LOT of things lately and I kind of like it! Work yesterday was, interesting. The developers played German music most of the day. Thank the good lord I had my Ipod! It was funny though. At 5 they started drinking. I decided to wait until we got there, since the beer was a higher point. Then I got in the limo and saw everyone else having one so I figured, why not?

Speaking of the limo...

Cadillac Escalade truck!

The ride there was a lot of fun. I got to know everyone better. Also, I found out that a guy I work with goes to my parents church. One of his daughters is in the same class as mine, when she's here. I got to talk with the developers more, and meet their wives and girlfriends, and seriously everyone is married or has a girlfriend. It's also SO funny seeing other people's "other halves" when you've been imagining what they look like. Let me tell you, I had it all wrong lol.

The only thing I had to eat was a smoked bratwurst with sauerkraut and mustard. It was really good, but I could have made it at home, thanks to the ex. Also I had a little piece of pretzel with cheese. YUM. The beer, was yummy. I'm not sure what kind of pitchers we got but I bought a SEVEN DOLLAR cup of Francizkaner Hefe, which was REALLY GOOD. Thank goodness for company provided money though, the brat was 6 dollars and the beer I got was 7... I only had 7 dollars left.

My best friend and her boyfriend got to come! Yay!

I <3 them. So my first Oktoberfest experience was a great one. I got closer with my company, I didn't embarrass myself, and I got to spend time with my best friend. OH and also had good food and beer. I will be going again!

Pumpkin Patch

2011-10-16T17:33:00.002-05:00

This weekend was so great. I had my angel girl, and it was my Sis and Dad's birthday Saturday. PLUS, this happened....

Heck yeah!!! World Series, here we come!!!! They ended the ALCS with a BANG, 15-5 against Detroit. It was awesome.

Saturday we took my angel and my nephews to the pumpkin patch. It was fun. Expensive, but fun. There wasn't much to do there but we let the kids slide, and ride ponies. Plenty of picture taking was done too.

She was so excited to ride that pony. She said "I've never seen a real horse before!" lol she LOVED it. She takes after me, that's for sure. I loved riding horses.

This week should be pretty fun. Wednesday night i'm going to Oktoberfest's corporate night. I've never been to an Oktoberfest, so i'm looking forward to it. Plus the company is paying for it, and we go in a limo! I hope everyone had a great weekend. It's time for me to relax... because tonight is the season 2 premier of..

SO EXCITED! If you want to catch up...Season 1 is available on Netflix instant streaming! Peace out!

Wednesday=BUSY

2011-10-12T19:48:00.002-05:00

Hello blog world. Work today was BUSY. I like it though, it makes the day go by faster, and when more and more clients come to me with their issues, I end up learning more. :) It's a win win!

I posted a saying I found on Facebook last night that said, Being single doesn't necessarily mean you're available. Sometimes you have to put up a sign that says, "Do Not Disturb" on your heart. SO TRUE. I am OK with being single. I have more important things to focus on. When the right time in my life comes along, that will change. For right now though, i'll be patient and like I said, focus on the things I have to get done in order for my life to be better.

Who cares that i'm almost 29, who says you have to do things by a certain time in your life? Some people just work slower than others. At least that's what I keep telling myself. I'm happy, and things are just going to get better.

This, is how I feel...

Bring it, world!

I can't explain it.

2011-10-10T18:09:00.000-05:00

I have the best feeling inside of me right now. Like i'm at peace. It's an amazing feeling. I don't know if it's because I've finally said goodbye in my heart to someone, or the fact that i'm watching the Rangers. lol whatever it is, I hope it doesn't go away!

So, Friday night I was at this place downtown called The Dust Bowl. It's a bowling alley, and they have a back patio that is awesome! I was thinking, "Man, I could have my birthday here!" then I remembered, my birthday is in December. They have these chairs though that are super fun! Here are pics of some planking. on the chairs and they are SO fun to sit on! They're springy grass chairs? I don't know.

Oh well, time for plan B. An 80's retropub! Emily and I are going to check it out sometime. I still have a couple months :P. I like to be prepared.

Well, that was a whole bunch of randomness today! I hope you all had a great Monday!

Until next time...

Ready to fly :)

2011-10-09T15:30:00.000-05:00

This pair of wing's worn and rusted
From too many years by my side
They can carry me, swear to be sturdy and strong
But see, turning them on still means goodbye

And so here we go, bluebird
Gather your strength and rise up
Oh, let him go, bluebird
Oh, let him go, bluebird

Oh, let him go, bluebird
Ready to fly, you and I
Here we go
Here we go
Here we go

Today is a big day...

2011-10-08T10:06:00.002-05:00

BOOMER SOONER!

People trash talk all year, just for this game. I'm super excited. I love college football! Happy weekend everyone!

Hello.

2011-10-06T07:42:00.002-05:00

I don't really have anything to say. So, i'll post some videos. :) This is one of my favorite songs. The whole "I was made for you" part doesn't really apply to me because I don't have anybody lol but it's a great song.

A video that makes me laugh...

I'm hosting LBK tonight, and i'm so nervous! I'm sure i'll be fine but please lord have people sing songs that I know! I know my bank account will enjoy tonight's work :)

Happy Thursday to my lurkers and friends, It's almost FRIDAY!

What?!

2011-10-03T21:30:00.002-05:00

So, I don't get this. I really don't. This kid is retarded or something. I'll start the story. Last week my facebook friend from HS lost her daughter last week in a horrific accident. Awful, well today was the funeral.

She posted a picture on Facebook of her daughter IN THE CASKET! I just sent a guy from HS a message that said "Ok, I wouldn't have put a casket picture up..." and he proceeds to do this.

Am I in the wrong? I mean yeah, I shouldn't have said screw you but I got angry! Do people not understand putting their children first?! And how did me saying "Ok, totally think you shouldn't post casket pics...." Turn into that mess??

Anyway, just had to get that out.

On a good note, I got my car washed at work today, inside AND out! Let's see what Tuesday brings.

For you...

2011-10-02T21:06:00.000-05:00

I saw you tonight, and you make me sick. Literally. I couldn't get out of there fast enough. I hate you for doing that to me. I always thought, if I ever saw you I would be strong. YOU were the one that made me go to the hospital. YOU were the one that held a sword at my face, so I had to have stitches in my fingers from trying to keep it away. YOU were the one that kicked me in the forehead, so I had to have a CT scan. You don't know this but while I was at your Sister's, your ex-wife came by and dropped off pain pills for me, because I didn't get to fill my prescription the day you got arrested. I wish every memory was gone. I hope someday I get closure. I hope someday you will find peace and get everything in yourself worked out, like you promised me in the letters you sent to me from jail.

I hope I never see you again.

Tulsa State Fair 2011

2011-10-02T08:41:00.000-05:00

Yesterday was SO EXHAUSTING! We got to the fair around 12:30, and didn't leave until almost 6. We only walked around for about 3 hours, the rest was spent at Toy Story 3 on ice. We started off walking through the animals...

Excuse me Mr. or Mrs. Yak, I think you're laying on poop.

Totally how I feel

Who would've thought...an emu and a pig.

So after all that fun animal stuff, we went to look at some other things and I saw the most disturbing thing EVER...

If I EVER found a spider that big anywhere near me, I would probably die. I would have a heart attack and fall over dead, in that case the spider would then eat me up and nobody would know. Seriously, that is a HUGE spider. I know there are bigger, like over in Iraq they have camel spiders but they aren't dangerous to humans.

Speaking of camels, I rode on one with my nephew. A picture was taken but I'm not showing it lol. WAY too embarrassing. My nephew was getting hungry so we got something to eat. I had a pork shishkabob and he had a corn dog.

Not actual size.

It was YUMMY. So we made our way to Disney on Ice. I have never been to an ice skating show and have only seen them on TV. I was pretty excited.

There are more videos on YouTube, but it was pretty enjoyable! I'm sad my angel couldn't be there with us. I talked to her on the phone and the first thing she said was "Mama, I'm sick" :( Poor angel girl. After we go home, I got in bed and took a 3 hour nap. I slept SO GOOD.

Well that was my weekend! Until next time...

Boo :(

2011-10-01T10:15:00.001-05:00

Well I was supposed to have my angel this weekend but she's sick. We were supposed to go to the fair and go see Toy Story on ice, but it's just going to be my nephew going. I'm excited :) My live band karaoke band Snapdragon had their first gig last night. First one in two years! They did great, and everyone loved them.

I'm freaking out about next week, doing LBK by myself. I'm sure the boys in the band will help me but it's really difficult having to pay attention to the words in order to change them in time, while answering peoples questions. Oh well, that's 150.00 for me!

I'm super tired so I'm gonna rest up before the fun times tonight. I hope everyone has a great weekend!

Three months!

2011-09-27T20:07:00.003-05:00

There are exactly three months until my Birthday. It sucks. My Birthday falls on a Tuesday this year, the weekend before is Christmas, the weekend after? New Years. At least I'm not the only one feeling this pain...

Booooooooo, so I guess I will choose the weekend of the 17th to celebrate. Why not? Maybe I should go back to having half birthdays like I did when I was younger. Oh well, I have three months to figure it out.

Work was super busy today. My co-worker was gone so I did a lot of extra stuff. I came home and fell asleep at 5:30...woke up at 7:15. Phew, didn't miss too much of Glee. I hope I can fall back asleep later! If not, I will be completely mad at myself. I hate getting no sleep.

That's all for now. Until next time...

Let me take you on a tour...

2011-09-25T12:40:00.000-05:00

At work Friday afternoon, the developers did their normal Friday routine. At 2:00pm they blasted the song Friday from their little side of the building. If your memory blocked out the song, I will remind you...

I'm not even kidding. Even though this song is awfully annoying, it makes you chair dance. So of course my co-worker Lindsay and I did just that. Then they play this song from Saturday Night Live called Motherlover. The song is...how do you say... dirty, but really funny.

Again..WARNING..

It's especially funny because one of the developers one day was singing really loud so the guys recorded him, and put it in this app. Kind of like an auto tune app on the iphone, and put it into the songs Motherlover and I'm On A Boat which they play after Motherlover. I'm going to try to get those somehow but anyway, I decided to take some pictures of the place.

To the left is where you walk in, then there's this kitchen area. The kitchen is stocked with pops and it has a Keurig machine... I want one.

Basketball goal, and that little opening on the left is the developers area. Upstairs to the right are some offices, and on the left is another area that has refrigerators, one being the alcohol fridge for when they have happy hour. Which in the four weeks I've worked there, it's only happened once.

The gym, obviously. Which I haven't used once lol. After work I just want to go home!

Here is where I'm sitting for right now. I have a direct line to the music, which is sometimes loud and annoying, especially when it goes from Country to 80's hair bands. I did make a contribution to the office song wise. I scored some points too...

So when you're doing whatever you're doing Friday, be sure to say a prayer for me at 2pm. I will be under the spell of Rebecca Black.

Premiere Video!

2011-09-21T00:29:00.002-05:00

My girl SB...

Also, Glee tonight was AMAZING. Lindsay Pearce from the Glee Project sang Anything Goes/Anything You Can Do and holy cow it was incredible. That had a little bit of meaning to me because my Sister was in Anything Goes in HS hehe. Here it is...

Looooooooooooove, and gosh I wish I had a voice like that!

The new show New Girl came on afterwards and oh my goodness, new favorite show! It's so FUNNY! I love Zooey Deschanel too. She is what I call adorkable.. a phrase i'm probably going to start using for myself lol. Ok i'm done for now. Later all!

Premiere week!!!

2011-09-19T18:24:00.000-05:00

This is the greatest week ever! Premiere's are this week! First up tonight is The Sing Off!

Sara Bareilles is going to be a new judge, along with Ben Folds and Shawn somethingorother from Boyz II Men. I should have went and saw Boyz II Men when they came. Then I could say I have seen all the judges in concert! So that's tonight at 7 central.

Tuesday night! GLEE!!!

Starting at 7 central...and there's a really cute/funny show that comes on after Glee called Raising Hope that I also suggest.

ummm Wednesday night I don't have anything, but Thursday is The Office...yeah I thought it was last week but I was wrong. That's right, I was wrong.

8 central

Friday night, Supernatural!!!

SUCH A GREAT WEEK!!!!

What are you guys watching?!

Also, you're welcome for spreading the love :)

Is this real?

2011-09-16T17:21:00.001-05:00

Hooray for Friday! This week went by really fast. Last night at LBK, we had another really great turnout. I took a video this time! This is Big Joe singing Mustang Sally...

He got pretty much everyone dancing and some chick gave Christine and I 40 bucks for the bands bar tab. Woot! At work today I found out my company goes to a corporate night at Oktoberfest, and they go IN A LIMO! What?! Who the heck do I work for?? I've got to say, I love my job. I can work when I want to as long as I get 8 hours a day in. So normally I work 8:30 to 4:30 with no lunch.

I'm going to have to get another job though. I've got to start getting more money so I can get a car, move out, and be able to live comfortably. So next week i'm going to be looking for something else. It sucks but I've got to do it and I know i'm not the only one who has had to work two jobs. I just have to keep reminding myself that it could always be worse.

Tomorrow I have my angel girl, and i'm looking forward to being with her. I hope you all have a fantastic weekend!

I'm only in week 3...

2011-09-13T07:51:00.000-05:00

So yesterday started my third week at work. Things are going great but I think i'm already starting to lose it. I don't know if it was just because it was a Monday, or the fact that I had a cup of coffee with a God awful amount of sugar in it that was making me go insane. I was reading my co-worker e-mails and I seriously was having trouble getting the words out. I was typing the word "vacancy" but subconsciously I typed "vacation".. what's funny about that is, the site I work for is GotNoVacancy. So when I ALMOST sent an e-mail saying GotNoVacation, I then realized the importance of templates.

I got to see my beautiful niece yesterday after work! Oh my gosh it's been so long since I've held a little baby. She's only five days old and so so tiny.

Look at her little leg?! hehe, she's so cute. While I was feeding her, Wiley, my 17 month old nephew kept crawling into her car seat and sitting in it. He also climbed up in the chair and sat beside me. I love my family.

Today is going to be interesting. We are having training sessions for about 23 people. I have to make sure EVERYONE is on the phone by 10:30. Wish me luck.

That's it for now, Happy Tuesday!

Hello, Saturday!

2011-09-10T18:05:00.001-05:00

I don't really have anything important to write. Last week was a pretty great one. My niece was born, my parents celebrated their 38th wedding anniversary and work brought in Zio's for lunch Friday. Also, Live Band Karaoke Thursday night was really great. We had six people sign up before we were even done setting up! Also, some girl that was there with her husband and friends asked how much it would be to do a gig in Kansas. KANSAS. It's like 1,000 dollars, insane right? That'd be awesome though.

Season 8 of The Office starts next week! FINALLY! I can't wait. I might have to re-watch Season 7, thanks Netflix! Also, sad news...Big Brother ends next week too. I know when it started I said Rachel was annoying, well she still is but I want her to win. She's honestly the best player in the game. She has more votes in the jury house too. Sorry, I know everyone doesn't watch it so i'll move on lol.

Now, to share with you all a video that always cheers me up and makes me laugh, so save this to your fave's and enjoy...a lot....

Happy Birthday, Elizabeth!!!

2011-09-07T18:19:00.004-05:00

Elizabeth Grace, 6 pounds 7 ounces 19 1/2 inches long!

It's time!

2011-09-07T07:07:00.000-05:00

Since my Sister hates for me to post stuff on Facebook before she has the chance to tell anyone, I figured I was safer here. Only one of her friends reads my blog, that I know of anyway. She's getting induced as we speak. YAY! By later this afternoon I will see my niece, Elizabeth. Have I mentioned how excited I am?! Cause I totally am.

Happy Wednesday!

Happy Labor Day!

2011-09-05T11:29:00.000-05:00

Finally, Friday after work I could say I liked my job. It took me four days, but I got used to it and I really do like it. Also, I like the fact that the developers across the room play some of the greatest music. It helps the day go by faster. This weekend was fantastic. I had my angel and we went to Stillwater to go see my Sis and Mom. Mom is staying over there to help my Sister with the boys when baby girl decides to arrive. We brought over a cake for Mom since it was her Birthday. This weekend was also the start of COLLEGE FOOTBALL!!!! It felt REALLY wrong being in Stillwater since i'm an OU fan. While we were at my Sis's I snapped this picture...

I posted it on Facebook saying "Brothers divided...Wiley is already disowning him." They're so cute. I love my nephews, and i'm so excited to be getting a niece soon! My angel said she didn't want any more cousins though. lol. Kids make me laugh. Anyway, we spent a lot of time with each other Saturday and by the time we got home Saturday night, my girl was ready for bed.

The next day we went to church and then it was time to take her home. We had a great time, and she loved seeing her cousins. So that was my weekend, and i'm off today so I plan on doing nothing. The weather turned SO COOL. It's in the 70's and it feels absolutely amazing! It makes me want to go fishing...hmm... I just might!

Oh another thing, I follow Cain's Ballroom on Facebook, where I saw Sara Bareilles and they posted the King of Anything video I did, with the crowd singing, but their version is a lot better so here ya go!

First day o' work...again...

2011-08-30T17:49:00.000-05:00

Well if you couldn't tell by the title, today was my first day of work. I. am. exhausted! I don't know if it's because I woke up at 6:15 for no apparent reason? Or if I'm just used to taking a nap, lol or if it's because I worked NON-STOP doing the same thing alllllllll day. It got old. It really got old, but i'm trying to keep my spirits up. I'm thankful I finally have a job though. I'm sure it will get better. I hope so anyway. I like that i'll be getting paid every week :) I like the girl i'm training with, although she's quiet. I did ask her if she watched Big Brother, but she doesn't :( lol oh well. Today was good though, it doesn't seem too hard yet. When I first walked in, I talked with the HR/head lady I don't know her title but she said that yesterday the people that were there were talking about me on lunch, and she was telling them I kicked everyone's butt in typing. Then she told me that they said they wanted to have a competition with me. I think i'm a part of the nerd herd. I love it.

The place where I work has a gym you can use after work and on the weekends. :D I think i'm going to take advantage of that, fo sho. That's really all I have, yeah not a lot. I'm so tired lol. I think i'm going to watch some movies and go to bed early. Until next time...

It's the weekennnnnd

2011-08-27T10:53:00.000-05:00

Nothing new to report on the job front, I did get a call Friday and was told i'd be receiving an offer in an e-mail for a job, then I have to pass the drug test. So i'm preeeetty sure I will have a job by next week. Depends on if the crack gets out of my system....KIDDING!

Thursday night was awesome, did my live band karaoke thing and made 80 bucks :D A lot of great singers came out, next week if I have a job it'll be interesting to see how I can manage doing both things. I may be tired but oh well, it's extra money. I have to take over full time Oct. 6th, that's 150 dollars! I'm kind of nervous because I don't know all of the songs, but I'm sure I can learn them all by then.

I have nothing planned this weekend, which is somewhat nice. My Sister is close to having her baby so my Mom has gone over to stay with her until the baby is born. My first niece :) Can't wait to meet her! Anywho, that's all for now. I hope you all have a fantastic weekend!

Final cut?

2011-08-24T16:59:00.000-05:00

I got the call today and the company I had two interviews with said I made the final cut. What does that mean? Does that mean I'll have to do MORE interviews? She e-mailed me saying my background check needed to be completed before we could move on. No problems with that one. So I have to wait until next week to figure out what else I have to do.

Yay though, we're moving in the right direction!

Second Interview

2011-08-23T23:54:00.000-05:00

Well my second interview was this morning and it went really well! The first thing the lady said was "Ah, you're the speed demon!" and then she asked "How is it that you can type so fast?" lol how do you answer that? I guess my keyboarding class in 9th grade stuck with me. They said they loved my essay! PHEW! Her and another girl asked me several questions. I. hate. questions. I get so freaking nervous. They asked me to describe myself in five words, I felt like I was taking forever so I said "apparently not a quick thinker" and I made them laugh. At the end of the interview the lady gave me a 25 dollar visa gift card. Score! She also had me fill out some paperwork and she said "This is a good sign, it means we like you." So hopefully I find out whether I got the job tomorrow. It'd be awesome for my bank account, and I can get back on track to saving money for a car and then a place.

Last weekend we took my angel girl to Stillwater to see my Sis and her family. Her and my nephew played hard. I'm glad I got to see my Sister, we had a really good conversation while she was making dinner. We talked about my essay, my ex special friend, and how I often would Facebook mean things when I was angry and in a bad point in life last year. I feel bad for that. I miss her. I really need to make a point to talk to her more. At least once a week. She's my best friend :) Ok i'm getting sappy so I'm going to stop now. I hope everyone has a great rest of the week!

I'm in love...

2011-08-19T15:53:00.001-05:00

This day just keeps getting better!

Fake it til you make it...

2011-08-19T13:50:00.004-05:00

Well, I wrote my essay and sent it off this morning. Want to see it? Ok fine...

One of my best customer service experiences happened while I was sitting on a plane that was heading to Los Angeles from Dallas. I had no carry on, just one bag. Bad weather was rolling in so the plane was delayed and we had to get off. Due to airline policy, you are not allowed to get your bag back and I had to stay overnight. I was worried and frantic.

I had left medicine in my bag and I really needed it. I called customer service and had reached a woman named Angela. I will never forget her name because she helped me out so much. Having worked in a call center environment before, I know that her day had probably been worse than mine but she still had the sweetest tone in her voice. I told her my situation and she assured me that everything would be fine. Normally associates that don’t even care just tell you “Well I’m sorry but that’s the policy.” Thankfully not Angela, after she had got off work she called her manager. Her manager then got a baggage handler to come and pull my bag off. I would have been fine with just that, but they then bumped me up to first class just for the inconvenience. After I had gotten back home, I wrote a letter to Angela and her boss commending both of them for being so kind and helpful.

I think the best customer service is when you go above and beyond what your job description entails. It really makes the customer feel like they’re one of a kind. I really appreciated what they did for me, and I’ll probably never forget it. Also, next time I’ll remember to carry medicine in a carry on bag. I love American Airlines.

Totally cheesy right? I needed 300 words and I had 296 so I added the "I love American Airlines" ha! Also, the story is totally made up. I just couldn't think of anything! It must've worked though because I just got a call that I have a second interview next week! WOOHOO! Thanks for all the kind words and support! I hope you all have a great weekend!

How to write an essay...

2011-08-18T15:37:00.000-05:00

Frankly, I have no clue. I haven't had to write one in 10 years. I have to now though. I had a job interview today and one of the things I have to do is write a 300 word essay about my best or worst customer service experience. My problem? Well A. I can't think of one and B. I have such a hard time writing things out! It seriously took me THREE times to pass my writing test in High School in order to graduate. I am AWFUL at writing things. Yes, I have a blog but I'm writing casually and not really worrying about being professional. I don't know what to do!

On a positive note of the tests I had to take, I found out I can type 90 words per minute. 90! That's pretty awesome, right? Ok maybe only to me but I did good on the other general tests, I just have such a hard time with writing. I bet she's expecting it today but i've been sitting here for an hour now trying to think of something, ANYTHING.

Pray for me that I can write this, and that I get the job. She said it'd be a week or two before I heard anything. That gives me plenty of time to write it lol.

Sara Bareilles!!!

2011-08-17T05:50:00.002-05:00

AHHHHHH! Ok now that I have that out of the way, holy crap the concert was A...MAZING. We'll start with the opening act, Javier Dunn.

Holy hottie. He is Sara's guitarist, he also helped to direct her Uncharted video. He's really amazing and has such a soulful voice. Plus, hello he plays the guitar like a boss. This is a song I of course found on YouTube, it's probably my favorite. It's called If You Go...

So he did about a 45 minute set and then my new best friend came out. She is even cuter in person, and MAN is she funny! Since the tragedy happened last weekend, she came out and asked for a minute of silence. She also mentioned, without the Hanson boys the show wouldn't have been possible, since all their equipment is in pieces in Indiana. Never thought I'd love the Hanson's so much lol. Her first song? UNCHARTED! Woot! It's like our best friendness connected and she played that for me. We had a moment.

She did this one, which is my second favorite... and again, found on YouTube...

Also, there was one point in the show when they went to the very back for the back people and did this cover...Javier Dunn on the far right..*drool*

L.o.v.e...right? During King of Anything, towards the end it was audience participation time! The right of the stage sang a part and the left side sang the other. I did record this so I hope you can hear it :/

Man, it was SUCH a good show. Em and I both thought it was better than Ben Folds because A. I wasn't with Mr. grumpy mcpisspants, and B. We have fun together. I reaaaaaaaaally hope she comes back to Tulsa. These pictures aren't very good but here are the ones I took of her...

Also, side note. This chick that was standing next to me at one point had an iPhone and Em told me to look over at her and when I did, the chick had zoomed in so much that it looked like she was in the front row. What's up with that?! I want extra mega zoom on my phone! One reason is, those pictures were on full zoom and we were still closer than what it seemed. It's like a car side mirror, my phone's pictures should come with a "Objects are closer than they appear" or something like that. It's early and I'm confusing myself. Oh and yeah, I got in at 12, and i'm awake. Go. Me.

Anyway, that's my story from last night and if Sara Bareilles ever comes near you...GO SEE HER! Also she's going to be a judge on this season's The Sing Off :D

Oh, sorry one more thing....Tower guy finally came down after 6 days on the radio tower!

Link to tower guy rescue here :)

Peace out!

One day!

2011-08-15T16:10:00.000-05:00

One day until one of my best friends and I go see Sara Bareilles! If you hadn't heard, a couple days ago Sara had just finished her set and had gotten off the stage when a big gust of wind came through and toppled the stage over killing four people and injuring 40. Awful awful situation. I pray for those families and everyone who saw that.

The tower guy is stiiiiiill up there. It's been five days now and he hasn't had a thing to eat or drink since Saturday. I really really hope it ends well but I'm thinking it wont. I'm afraid he's going to pass out and fall. He's like 150 feet in the air too. Eek!

Well that's all I have to report today. I'll update you all after the show Tuesday night!

#towerguy

2011-08-14T09:45:00.002-05:00

That was from yesterday but yeah he's still up there today. I saw on Twitter that he was crowing like a rooster this morning as the sun came up. He's also said to police that he'll stay up there a month if he has to.

Also, WHY would you bring your children to something like that?! I hope it ends well but I have a feeling he's going to fall into a deep sleep and fall off. He can't go on much longer, can he?

Rifftrax, greatest thing since MST3K.

2011-08-12T09:15:00.001-05:00

If you guys remember, back in the day there was this great show (in my opinion) called Mystery Science Theater 3000. It's no longer on cable but thanks to the wonderful invention called Netflix, there are a lot of the episodes available for streaming. The basic point of that show was you watched a really horrible movie and the characters made fun of it. Well, in the last 5 years the guys of that show Mike Nelson, Kevin Murphy and Bill Corbett created Rifftrax. Rifftrax takes the more recent movies and well, pretty much makes fun of them. It's hilarious. I'll show you with a sample from Paranormal Activity..hilarious...

I suggest you check the movies out. I have seen Paranormal Activity, Twilight, The Last Airbender, High School Musical, Dirty Dancing, and SAW... ALL gold. Yes, I am aware I have to much time on my hands.

So last night was great, we had a lot of people show up to Live Band Karaoke. Saturday we have a private karaoke gig for Sally Beauty Supply at a big hotel, woot! Sunday i'm going to Stillwater, my Sis is having her baby shower for my first niece! Also, something going on in Tulsa that is crazy. My friend Emily works at Clear Channel here in Tulsa and of course they have a tower outside. Yesterday around 10 a.m. this man decided to climb it, and he's still there. 23 hours later! There's been lightning storms and another one is moving in. He's been taking naps up there too. You know when you're sleeping and you have that falling feeling? Imagine having that up in a tower. I would poop my pants! Anyway if you want to read on it here is the link...http://www.fox23.com/news/local/story/Man-on-station-tower/5rgba1kfckSTt_N2MJ6Peg.cspx.

That's all for today, I hope everyone has a FANTASTIC weekend!

Excited doesn't even describe the feeling...

2011-08-09T16:11:00.001-05:00

So next week, 7 days exactly is the Sara Bareilles concert, and thanks to Emily's boyfriend we got free tickets! I LOVE her, and she was part of my tattoo idea I've thought about. Which looks like i'm going to do. :) I'm really excited about it and will for sure show all of you when it's done. THEN I got a call from Christine letting me know the details of the private gig we have this weekend. YAY! Things couldn't be going better! Well, if I had a full time job they would be amazing but I'm fine with how things are now at the moment. :D

In two days is Live Band Karaoke, and then two days after that is the private gig, and Sunday is my Sisters baby shower which I look forward to going to. Then two days after that is Sara Bareilles! I AM SO EXCITED! So to show my excitement I will share will y'all my fave song of hers, also the first guy is Ben Folds...I SAW HIM and it was amazing :)...

I've shown it before but it's just great :) I hope everyone has had a great week so far!

Proof I can conquer anything...

2011-08-05T08:43:00.002-05:00

It's weird how doing one thing can give you so much confidence. You might not know this about me, but I have a HUGE fear of being in front of people. I used to not be able to walk into a room even without the feeling that everyone was staring at me. I can't stand to be the center of attention either. Last year, I started doing karaoke and I got hooked and I felt my confidence grow. I started helping out my friend Christine at her Live Band Karaoke about a month ago maybe, and I sang last week but this week Christine made me sing at the beginning and honestly, it wasn't that bad! In fact, I sang THREE songs! I'm glad she made me do it. Now for the proof...

I look weird lol but yeah, that's me up there! I think i'm going to make it my goal to conquer every fear I have....eventually. :) Also, I'm starting to be invited to private gigs as the sound person! Hello more money!

This weekend I plan on spending time with my angel :) She is starting school in a couple weeks. Crazy. I bought her a booster for the car a couple weeks ago. My baby is growing too fast! Well, I have to watch Big Brother from last night so I hope you all have a great weekend!

Hi everyone

2011-08-02T23:46:00.000-05:00

I'm not dead...I just have nothing to write, so i'll leave you with another funny video that makes me laugh every time...

Someone didn't last...

2011-07-31T14:44:00.002-05:00

At Josh's Victory after-after party, I finally got to say hi... poor guy looked at me, smiled, and I asked him "Are you ready to go?" and he shook his head yes. I said "Does Sara know?" Sara is his wife by the way, and he didn't say anything just pointed to her. I said "I'll go tell her." he shook his head yes. I said "Sara, Josh is ready to leave, he wanted me to come tell you." she looked at her watch and was like "It's only 12!" Just then I see his friend walking him out and he apparently he got pretty sick. Someone took a picture though, and in pure Josh fashion he still smiled...

And a video... Warning: there is puking, but the first part has where he won his fight by TKO.

That was a fight Josh Bryant did not win...

He is on Facebook http://www.facebook.com/pages/Josh-The-Beast-Bryant/189524101099807 go be a fan. :)

Happy Saturday!

2011-07-30T16:29:00.002-05:00

Before I go to Josh's party tonight, I thought i'd share this video with you... it's a beer commercial chronicling (spelling?) epic fails at a bar...in slow motion. This makes me laugh...hope you enjoy it! Also, avoid making the same mistakes if you go out tonight...

So tired...

2011-07-29T08:47:00.000-05:00

Last night was fantastic! I love that so many people enjoy karaoke. The crowd last night was awesome, a lot of supporters and nothing got too out of hand. Believe it or not, I got up and sang a song with Christine! I guess I should also mention that it was the last song of the night, when mostly everyone had left. It was still nerve racking! It is a totally different vibe singing with a band, but wow I should have started earlier because once you start, you want to do more. Christine told me I was doing it again next week, the first song too. Oh well, I know Christine wouldn't ask me to do it if I was awful.

So I got home at 2:30, and woke up at 6:30! That makes a total of 12 hours of sleep in three days. I don't know what my issue is. Oh well. This weekend I don't have much planned. There's a party Saturday night i'm invited to for Josh Bryant, my MMA buddy. He had a fight last weekend to defend his belt and he is still the champ. Knocked the guy out in like 57 seconds. So he's having an after after party for the ones that couldn't make it to Shawnee. Other than that, I'm catching up on sleep!

That's all I have for now...I hope everyone has a great weekend!

It's Wednesday...let's watch drunk people dance.

2011-07-27T14:29:00.000-05:00

I'm so excited for tomorrow night! Tomorrow is Live Band Karaoke, and it'll be my second time going. I took a couple of videos last week so I'll post them now...hope you can hear. It's just Christine singing with her band...the first video is the Kings of Leon song Sex on Fire.

The second one is Boys of Summer, accompanied by some awesome people dancing. Cracks. Me. Up.

I so look forward to witnessing that again. Other than that, I have nothing new to report... Happy Wednesday all!

Going away party and my angel.

2011-07-25T11:39:00.000-05:00

Friday night I went to a going away party for my friend Elisa. It was really fun. We went to a place on Riverside and had dinner...Called the Blue Rose Cafe.

Elisa is moving to the city to be with her boyfriend Corey...

This is another reason why I broke up with my ex special friend. He had a MAJOR problem with this, and even went off on me about it. Whatever, I don't care. They love each other and that's all that matters. Anyway, we ate and the food was OK i guess. I probably wouldn't go again to eat. After a while, Emily and her boyfriend Brad "Spoon" came...

Aren't they cute? So we decided to go somewhere else, and this place I love because the music they play there is old school and awesome, plus it's not that expensive...

So we hung out there for a little bit and our friends Alisha and Bryan showed up and we decided to move to our final place...

So that was my Friday night! Saturday morning I woke up, went to get gas and washed my car just in time to head out to get my angel.

My nephews, Sis, and B.i.L. came over and we all went to this water park thing and had a really good time. Definitely going back there again. The next day I took Mikayla to Burger King to play. Going to Burger King or McDonald's where they have a play area is a GREAT idea, especially when it's been so hot here!

We had a great weekend, and I cannot believe she is starting school in a few weeks. Time goes by so quickly! That's it about my weekend. I hope everyone has a great week!

Thank you Dad for my nerd genes...

2011-07-22T09:08:00.001-05:00

Last night was awesome! I went to a pub last night for my friends live band karaoke. I immediately got thrown into the job of Christine's assistant. They were supposed to start at 9:30 but they were having issues with their computer projecting the words on the TV screens. Now the most experience I've had with dual monitors was at my last job, and I fortunately messed around with the settings. The drummer was working hard trying to get it to work. Christine said "Why don't you let us mess with it." He left, and seriously I just double clicked on the words and it projected onto the TV screens. Christine then yelled "Miranda fixed it!" and all was good. A little later on, it messed up again, for some unknown reason and I fixed it, again! The drummer looked at me and said, "You're coming next week!" and Christine said that she already told me I was hired.

So after it was over and the bar was closing they got together and gave me 50 bucks. WOOT! They said I saved their arse and they didn't know what I did but I need to be back because I was in charge of it. So, thank you Dad for blessing me with your technology gene! Also, I was already supposed to be Christine's backup for when she's gone. It's fun watching people. It's so different than normal karaoke because people just instantly think they're rockstars when they sing with a band.

Anyway, that's all. I hope everyone has a great weekend!

Letting Go...

2011-07-21T12:08:00.000-05:00

I'm having a hard time letting go of things. How do you just completely forget about someone, and not worry about them anymore? It's especially hard when you stupidly cared for them. Sometimes I wish I didn't care so much about things. It'd make certain situations much easier, that's for sure. On the opposite side, I wouldn't be me. I don't know. What do you suggest? Does it just go away with time?

My plans for the rest of the week are packed! Tonight is my friend Christine's live band karaoke. FINALLY going to that, after I told her twice I was going. That should be really fun. Tomorrow night is my friend Elisa's going away party. She's moving to the city (OKC) to be with her boyfriend.

Me, Emily, and Elisa

I met her through Emily and she is one of the funniest people I have ever met. She cracks me up. We didn't really hang out a lot, I wish we had though. Then Saturday i'm getting my angel girl and we're going to a big water park. I told her about it and MAN was she excited! Anyway, I guess that's all for now. Until next time...

Excited!

2011-07-19T07:06:00.000-05:00

I just totally gleeked out and purchased this item...

Front

Back

I will totally rock it everywhere, too. I figure i'll find out who my real friends are, real quick HA! Just kidding, they all know i'm a geek. So, I saw this video last night and I could NOT stop laughing...

Also, The Walking Dead season 2!! It's coming in October...I can't wait any longer!

I am in no way a fan of head trauma, but when it comes to a zombie, it's AWESOME! In a semi related note, I feel like I am dying, or will die from coughing...I believe I have caught my Mom's pneumonia, and it sucks... I hope it doesn't get worse. Anyway, that's it for now. Until next time...

Party!!!!

2011-07-17T21:33:00.000-05:00

Saturday night one of my best friend's Emily had a birthday party. Her birthday isn't actually until Tuesday but who wants to celebrate on a weeknight? Plus she has to be up by 4 am. So we had her birthday party at a bar close to her work. It was pretty fun. All my friends were there :)

A lot of people showed up. Her radio bosses and their wives, Josh Bryant and his wife and some of their friends. I didn't stay very long, I didn't even drink. It was good to get out. I don't have much to say except Happy 26th Birthday Emily! I love you!!!

Ahhhh....I love when a song covers how you're feeling.

2011-07-16T19:01:00.000-05:00

Just something that gets me happy...

2011-07-14T09:00:00.000-05:00

Exercise while helping out...

2011-07-13T20:07:00.000-05:00

The church I started going to last summer is finally getting their own building! No more movie theater church! They had an open house where you could see it and they needed help painting the auditorium. I figured I would go and help. I like doing those things, it makes me feel good. So I showed up at 5 o'clock and worked until about 6:30. I was wearing jeans...bad idea... and was sweating and SO HOT I had to leave. I think i'm going to be sore tomorrow, I am not even a fan of painting. Oh well, like I said it feels good helping out.

After I left I got me a BIG cup of sweet tea, and man did it taste good. I got home just in time for Big Brother. I fall more and more in love with Jeff and Jordan as the show goes on. They are too incredibly cute and so sweet to one another. I totally love Jordan too, she's so... I don't know the right word. Not dumb, but well.. here...

She just says the FUNNIEST things! That was from Sundays episode. Anyway, now I plan to get ready for bed, because I am super tired. I haven't been sleeping very well. It's almost the weekend!

Aggravated...

2011-07-11T21:45:00.000-05:00

I knew things wouldn't work out between the two of us, I was just waiting for the right time to break it off. It started Friday night when he was upset I couldn't come see him, and that he'd have to drive and pick me up, like he had for about 2 months. He said that I was 28 but was being treated like I was 16. He told me I was putting a lot of wear and tear on his car. I had given him gas 2 or 3 times, but that apparently didn't matter. He mentioned again that i was being treated like a baby and it was just dumb. Said I had him running everywhere, when the only place we mostly went was his house. He called me inconsiderate.

The part that aggravates me is he never saw what I did for him. He only complained, I had bought food a lot of times, CIGARETTES which I had told myself I wouldn't do but I felt I had to because he was wasting gas coming to pick me up and drop me back off. Why am I the one feeling guilty? I did nothing wrong... it's not like I can go against what my Dad says and just take the car anyway. Plus, i'm living here. I have to follow his rules. I was just thinking today that I'm going to be turning 29 in December and this is NOT how I had wanted my life to be like at almost 30.

Again, here is the "I'm feeling like a failure" phase creeping up on me. Thursday I lose my job, Friday I lose my special friend. I keep trying to say over and over, everything happens for a reason. I firmly believe in that, so again I'm just going to give it up to God and let him handle it. I've been through this once or twice before, I can go through it again. I guess this is just one of those things I'll have to let go, someday my situation will get better. I was so close to buying the car, then I lost my job.

I'll get out of my funk. I always do.

Busy weekend!

2011-07-10T17:05:00.000-05:00

Well, this was a pretty exhausting weekend. We had my girl, and my two nephews. My oldest came with me to get my daughter and the hour and a half ride back seemed like 4 when they did this the whole time...

Yeesh... but it was a really great time... they LOVE each other. We went swimming, and played at a playground, and we went for a walk. For those of you not around this area, it's HOT! It was like 110 today and it's only early July. I'm not looking forward to August. So for that reason, we didn't take a very long walk. I'm getting into my funk again so I'm going to start back exercising. It really seems to help, and it's good for me, duh. At least I have Emily's birthday party to look forward to next week.

Big Brother is tonight! So, i'm off to go exercise before it starts. I hope everyone had a fantastic weekend!

A lot happens in one day...

2011-07-08T20:43:00.002-05:00

Third post today! Thought i'd update everybody... I'm single again. That is all. :)

Big Brother 13!

2011-07-08T14:48:00.001-05:00

A new Big Brother started last night. YAY!!!! So the short version is, 8 new people that are teamed up plus 3 old house guests that are a team... Head of Household picks a team to be nominated, and then one member is eliminated and the un-evicted house guest gets a golden key (new this season) and they will be safe until there are only 10 house guests left. My least favorite team is back....and I really don't think I can stomache the chick. Remember Rachel???

The most ANNOYING girl I have ever seen, has come back with her now fiance Brendon... poor guy... and she won the first Head of Household. My FAVORITE duo is back as well!!!

Jeff and Jordan!!!! This team is awesome, they're sweet and they were on a season of The Amazing Race, after they were on Big Brother 11. I am definitely pulling for those two! Evil Dick and Danielle came back as well, I almost didn't recognize Danielle because she died her hair black.

Dick got disqualified though, I'll have to wait til Sunday to see what happened but I heard about it this morning on the radio. So that means Danielle automatically gets a golden key. So be sure to check it out!

Sundays at 8pm ET/PT, Wednesdays at 8pm, and Thursdays at 9pm. On CBS.

Ben Folds!!!

2011-07-08T08:06:00.003-05:00

OHHHHHH my goodness. Ben Folds was AMAZING! He is such a fantastic piano player and is pretty much a genius. He sang the song that pretty much got him started, which was "Brick" when it was Ben Folds Five. He sang The Luckiest which is the most beautiful song I've ever heard, and I don't know if he ever sang Rockin' the Suburbs.

He gave the crowd three parts to sing, and wow, when put together it was SO BEAUTIFUL

This is the song with the crowd harmonies...it sounded better than this one but oh well lol it was from April of 08 in Tulsa...

We left at like 11, during his second encore song...I was disappointed but my special friend was "tired, hungry, needed a smoke, and had to work in the morning" ... DEAR LORD he was annoying me! We were texting each other because it was really too loud to speak and my last text to him was "Can't you just say one thing positive?" and his reply was "no". It's about to end, I cannot STAND someone who is negative all the time, and he is. I like being positive and optimistic. Anne Frank is a good example of optimism and just seeing the good in everything. Some of my favorite quotes from her are...

"And finally I twist my heart round again, so that the bad is on the outside and the good is on the inside, and keep on trying to find a way of becoming what I would so like to be, and could be, if there weren't any other people living in the world."

"Everyone has inside of him a piece of good news. The good news is that you don't know how great you can be! How much you can love! What you can accomplish! And what your potential is!"

"I don't think of all the misery but of the beauty that still remains."

There are obviously more, but this one is my absolute favorite...

"It's really a wonder that I haven't dropped all my ideals, because they seem so absurd and impossible to carry out. Yet I keep them, because in spite of everything I still believe that people are really good at heart."

It's just amazing to me how someone going through what she and a million others went through could remain so positive. I noticed that a lot when I went to the Holocaust Museum in Dallas. You'd think it'd take a lot more effort being negative than it would being positive. That'd be a sad, lonely life. Anyway, I'm ready to be done with him and his negativity, all it does is get me frustrated and annoyed. I don't need that.

So, I guess that's all for today. Have a great weekend everyone!

Here we go again...

2011-07-07T12:45:00.003-05:00

Long story short, I'm jobless again... Good news is though I will be seeing Ben Folds tonight! So I will leave you with one of my faves from him....

Good day all!

Fourth of July weekend.

2011-07-05T20:18:00.000-05:00

My weekend was good... I had a three day weekend which is always welcomed. Sunday I went to my special friends Sisters house for swimming, food, and fireworks. I helped her make dinner and it was really nice talking to her. She has 4 kids, the oldest being a girl that is 18. It was really nerve racking at first, but I became more comfortable as the night went on. Meeting his Sister and bro-in-law was A LOT less awkward than meeting his parents. His Sis actually talked to me, ha! At the end of the night we said our goodbyes and his Sister told me that I was welcome back any time.

Monday I just hung around the house and watched some fireworks across the street when it got dark enough. I kept thinking about what I was doing this time last year. It's hard not to think about. It's hard not to think about the girls. I miss them, it makes me sad I wont be able to see what they will look like as they get older. They were beautiful. I remember the oldest said to my ex something like, she was glad he was with someone nice. I hope he finds another nice girl, and I hope he treats her with respect.

Sorry, I went off on a rant. That's it for today, until next time...

Different views...

2011-06-28T09:11:00.001-05:00

I have so many things to say right now, I just don't know how to say them! Things are going great, work wise but in other ways...so-so. Can you make a relationship work if you have WAY different points of views? The way I am, I love everybody and I just live my life doing what I need to do. I guess you can say i'm kind of ignorant to the ways of the world. He just isn't like that. He's not a BAD guy, he's incredibly sweet and kind, which is weird because he goes off on these rants and it really makes me sad. I know i'm being very vague about it but I just don't want to put it ALL out there. I just don't know what to do.

I can't change how he thinks, and I know you shouldn't go into a relationship with hopes that you can. So maybe this is it for us. I read a thing today and it said something like, The biggest mistake I have made in my life is letting people stay in my life far longer than they deserve..., maybe that was God trying to tell me something. I mean if I'm already having these thoughts, at just a little over a month, maybe I should break it off or let it run its course. We'll see I guess.

Pick me up for a Monday

2011-06-27T09:08:00.000-05:00

This just makes me laugh, like, every time I watch it. I love this movie also...Easy A...check it out. Plus, Emma Stone is just too cute. Anyway, I hope you enjoy this as much as I always do!

Pictures from first trip...

2011-06-23T07:59:00.000-05:00

All of these pictures are from my first trip to the Leeward Islands, the one I talked about last post. So here we go...

I don't remember anyone's name but that's me on the far left!

This is the boss man of it all, Carlton

There was a sister ship, the one in the background. Some of the boys swam over and took some things off of it, and yes that is a coconut head, named Pedro. We had an inflatable alien person we named Sam that the other boat stole in retaliation.

We kind of collided with another boat towards the end of the trip... it could have been a lot worse.

The other pictures I have aren't really impressive, but it was a fun trip. We sailed on a Catamaran and I was AWESOME at navigating. I found it really fun! I even got my sailing license...I have no idea where it is now but I did have one at one point in time. I found my sailing book... that had no records in it, but i do have proof! Well it's time to get started on work, it's almost the weekend!

Sometimes, all you have to do is ask...

2011-06-22T10:09:00.000-05:00

It was just eating at me and eating at me, so last night I finally asked my special friend THE question. He actually surprised me. I thought he'd be mad that I looked him up but he wasn't. He already figured I had, and he said he looked me up as well. I told him that I was sorry but I had to protect myself, and he understood. He told me all the stories behind "the issues" and even told me extra ones I had no idea about. So, all that is behind us now and I feel much better. Hooray!

I got an e-mail from Dad yesterday and he said they were having a great time in Jamaica. Dad and bro-in-law are taking scuba diving lessons and are supposed to be going on a dive today. I miss scuba diving SO MUCH! I went on a couple of scuba diving trips, one when I was 16 and then at 17. First trip was to the Leeward Islands...St. Martin, St. Baarths, Saba, St. Kitts, and Nevis... I have pictures of these places, I'll upload them tomorrow but it was SO pretty. I spent two weeks out in the ocean and man did I get dark. The second place I went was the northern part of Honduras, the first week was spent on land, we did community work like building walking trails and what not in the rainforest. It was hard work but the second week was when we went to Roatan and stayed at Anthony's Key Resort it was GREAT! We heard that Rebecca Romijn-Stamos was there the week prior...just missed her! Anyway, I got to swim with DOLPHINS! Something I had always dreamed of. The two trips were through the same organization, which is called Go Broadreach and the link is HERE. It's pretty pricey but definitely worth it for teens, plus you can get college credits on some of the trips!

Back to the point, I miss scuba diving. I am an Advanced Open Water Diver, which means I can dive to about 100 feet. I still remember my first dive. I remember looking at all the coral and thinking to myself, this is insane! I can't believe i'm able to breath under water and see all these beautiful things that other people don't! It's definitely something you should do, but never alone so take a partner! Anyway, I will get the pictures uploaded and show you them tomorrow. Happy Hump Day everyone!

Dig deeper...

2011-06-20T08:45:00.000-05:00

So I said I ran a background check on my special friend, and I did, but I guess I didn't do a more extensive search like I should have. I went somewhere else and found out a few things that sort of raise a red flag... now, how do I go about asking him about what I found without seeming like I am psychotic? I mean, I do have reason to be weary of things so he SHOULD be understanding, but no one likes their past to be brought up. I talked to my friend at work about it and she didn't really know how to ask him about it either. She has been in the same position I have, she had a gun put to her head though.

I really am having a battle in my head. I tend to always believe people are good at heart, all they need is help. That's not my job though, and I need to remember that. I would bend over backwards for someone if they wanted me to, but again, it's not my place. So what should I do? I met his parents last night, well technically just his Mom, and it was a quick "Hi, nice to meet you" at the casino, and his Dad never even said one word to me. It was really really awkward. One of the things I found had to do with his Mom back in 2004, the second (for the same thing but against someone else) was in 2006. People can change, but I just want to know what started the issue in the first place.

I asked my bro-in-laws brother about it because he's a cop and where I could find out more info, but it wasn't much help. Anybody else know of any sites except for oscn.net?

Let me discuss the weekend... Friday night we went to the Drillers game, but before that we went to Fat Guys Burgers and OH MY GOODNESS. It was SO delicious!!!! I had heard it talked about a lot and I got the Peanut Butter Bacon Burger... sounds gross, but is AMAZING!

Messy, but SO worth it!

My bro-in-law

So that was Friday night, Saturday I hung around and they went swimming. Sunday I woke up at 5:30 to tell everyone goodbye as they took off for the airport on their way to Jamaica... I told my mom to find a guy on the beach with dreadlocks and ask him for an ounce...she didn't find it as funny as I did. On another note...

I need a haircut! That's all for now, I hope everyone has a great Monday!

Tattoo or not to tattoo?

2011-06-17T11:52:00.002-05:00

Melissa, my co-worker said she was going to get a tattoo next week and asked if I wanted to go with her... or maybe I volunteered, I don't really remember. Anyway, I have been wanting a tattoo for a while now, but I still kind of like not having anything on my body. I have an idea though and I'm thinking that if I go with her, i'll want to do it. So what do you all think? Seriously, answer in the comments :P. What i'm wanting is a nautical star with the colors light blue and black. What it stands for is "Finding your way", you know, like the sailors used the stars to find their way home. I'm still trying to find my way, through life, and everything that goes along with it. I also want a word tattoo'd underneath it. The word is uncharted after Sara Bareilles' song. The chorus of the song says:

I'm going down

Follow if you want,

I won't just hang around

Like you'll show me where to go

I'm already out

Of foolproof ideas so don't ask me how

To get started

It's all uncharted

So, I believe the two will go nicely with each other, because it's relevant to my life right now. Which brings me to my next hang up, what happens when I have found my way? I guess i'll have the tattoo as a reminder of what all I went through? Sounds good I guess. Now, my next question, where to put it? I also wanted two, near my hip bones but then I saw A LOT of girls with tattoos there and it was kind of trashy. *No offense to anyone that does have them there, you may look better than the ones I saw :) Then I thought my shoulder blade, but which one? Also, wouldn't that REALLY hurt since it's on bone? SO MANY QUESTIONS! I really need y'alls help! So, again, leave a comment pro or con with advice. It would be greatly appreciated!

Hope everyone has a great weekend!

One reason I love my job.

2011-06-13T19:10:00.004-05:00

So, the people I work with are pretty freaking awesome. They're so laid back it's insane. It's seriously like a family around there. So the other day at lunch, the lady I work under and then the owner guy and I were talking with another lady named Marge in the office...about porn... I wasn't saying a word because I'm still the newb around there. Marge said "I don't watch that stuff, and I never will" she's like in her late 60's? Anyway, Melissa the girl I work under said to the owner, she was going to send Marge a picture and title it Teamwork... I will not describe the picture, but it was actually pretty funny. The owner laughed and said OK...so at the end of the day she had not checked her mail. So another girl Kerrie went in to have her open it, and I got it all on video...

I was laughing so hard I was crying... and I was trying to be quiet because I hate when you have a good video and all you hear is the person taking its laughter... anyway, I just wanted to share that with the world haha!

Friday night my Sister and B.i.L. AND kids are coming over, since they are leaving for Jamaica Sunday morning. We're all going to the Drillers game! It will be my first time in the two years I've lived here to go to a Drillers game. Minor league baseball for those not from around here. :) Anyway i'm really excited, I love going to baseball games! Plus with all my family, it should be really fun. Ok, now i'm done posting today. I will leave YOU with this song... it's been in my head, it's pretty fitting...

The weekend.

2011-06-13T10:06:00.000-05:00

Well, this weekend I had my angel and it was great. We went swimming, went for a walk to the park, and had a fun time in bible class. She is becoming so vocal, it's insane. She will talk your ear off, and I love it! She knows her letters, and points them out. On the drive to church we passed a Texaco and she saw the sign and said "That's a T!" she amazes me every day. She is going to be starting swimming lessons next week and I'm really happy about that. When we were swimming we would go under water and I'd show her how to hold her breath and she did pretty good with that. So here are some pictures of her from this weekend...

Walking with Libby and Dad

She is always making new friends!

Man alive, I'm so ready to get a new phone with a better camera. Oh well, another day :) My mom said last night she could tell I was happier. I think the big thing that was causing my depression was obviously not having a job. Who wouldn't be depressed about that? I'm now going to start budgeting and saving up for a car, then i'll work on moving into a house with Meghan. I'm REALLY excited about that. That's it for today, I hope everyone has a great Monday!

Fired :(

2011-06-10T16:37:00.000-05:00

Well, today is my last day... as far as being with the temp agency goes! In order for me to be hired on full time (no temp contract attached) I have to be fired. They said to come back Monday though! I had to call the temp agency and tell them I was fired. I hate lying to people lol but seriously they would have to pay over a thousand for me to get out of it. So...YAY!

This weekend I plan on swimming with my angel. I love summer! Tonight me and my special friend are going to watch the Rangers game...on TV. He doesn't like watching games on TV, but he does it because he knows I LOVE my boys. I guess that's all for now! I hope everyone has a great weekend.

My special friend and weekend :)

2011-06-06T12:05:00.001-05:00

I know I know, I said no dating... my friend set me up, and I'm glad she did! I've been seeing someone for about 3 weeks now. He is pretty much amazing so far. He's a smoker (bleh) but I can look past that. He is SO considerate. Like, I still find it shocking how considerate he is. The first time we went to his house, he asked if it was OK if he smoked....in his own house! I said, "um..I don't mind, it's your house" and he said "I know but if it bothers you, i'll go outside." I thought, what freaking planet are you from?! I hardly have to get up and do anything when we're hanging out. He will ask if I want something to drink, and I'll say "Yeah, but I can get it." and he says "No, that's ok I'll get it" is this how normal guys are? Am I just not used to that? I am LOVING IT! Also, he doesn't let me pay for anything! He also doesn't like to go to bars or clubs. He has a strict no drinking and driving policy, which is also amazing. This may seem psycho on my part but I had to run a background check on him lol, I want to be smart about dating someone this time. He passed, his only crime is he likes to speed. He has a fast car though, so I don't blame him.

So, we went fishing this weekend! Again, the guy is amazing, he didn't want me carrying anything! I don't think it's one of those "you're a weak female" things, he is just really thoughtful! Anyway, here are some pictures :)

My special friend :)

This is an Alligator Garr

I caught that, it's a drum fish! I couldn't hold it though, I was afraid lol

I got a pretty rad burn... first burn of summer! That means for me, the burn will get darker and then I can continue to get a tan, no more whitey! So things are going great for me. Great job, great guy (so far), and I'm looking forward to seeing how much better things will get. That's all for now! Happy Monday everyone!

Woo!

2011-05-29T14:01:00.000-05:00

I love being happy...and I can honestly say I am. No stress, and nothing to worry about. The woman I am assisting at work, told me Friday that she would talk to the boss this week about hiring me on permanently. After only three days of working there! The two girls I work with that are closer to my age than the other ones, talked to me a lot on Friday, about who to trust and not trust in the office. Also, they told me about the chick who worked there before me, and how she was falling asleep at her desk. They said she either got high after lunch or took some Lortabs. I said they had nothing to worry about, I don't take any kind of pills lol. They're my Facebook friends now and they are really really awesome to work with. They said i'd be working there for life if I just listened to them ha. It's HOT outside, and I had my daughter this weekend.

Scary thing happened yesterday, she was walking around the pool and her foot slipped and she fell in... she's not a swimmer yet so I ran over and pulled her out. It happened so quickly but phew it was scary! I'm going to make sure she learns how to swim this summer. Well, I guess that's all for now. Thanks for the latest comments from all of you wonderful readers and friends! :) Have a great Memorial Day weekend!

Deep Thoughts by...*Just Kaye*